i woke upppppppp only at 9am... so tired *yawn*!!!!!!!!!!!!! bad day... ( totally) my mother called and say my grandfather was hopitalized and... i dunno!!! so we went to the hospital.. and i asked if i can still go janice's party and she says most likely no... tat's so depresssing!!! i mean (of cuz my grandfather is important but no party??? tAt's a no way!!!) y do things always happen the way i dun want it to ??? everytime like thad one leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so frustrating!!! home is like jail to me... muz stay at home like a bird in a cage... so b0ring... i'm dying of boredom!!! ahhhhhh!!! but at least i played computer somehow... hmmm... and i'm on this book... written by dan brown.. it's the digital fortress... soooooooooooo cooooooooooooool!!! just can't put the book down... teeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeee... well... i hope my grandfather gets better cuz ... (but i dun think so leh... he's already 80+ and must still do operation) i dun want him to disappear from this world!!! i really do not want... well.... hope things change for the better(: smile alwayzXD
its just so, so tempting. then again im 19. i dont want to spend my life thinking about "what ifs" and "should haves". they all tell me im in a fortunate position because such a guy only come round once in your life. i know that and thats why im still holding on so tightly, but there are just so many trees out here in the forest, and you've no idea how hard it is for me to say "no" because they're all attractive and suave. i know its all a pretense though, i mean everyone's first impression would always be like that and its what happens once you get to know them better right. i know all of these YET at the back of my mind, a part of me wants to try something new. fresh, novel, excitement, wanderlust, unpredictability, the perils of teenage love, the self-destructing love. YET i know its not healthy, and not practical, and why not just stick to something comfortable and sustainable. and what more can i complain seriously. why nico, why are you s...
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