deafening silence

HAHAHAHA ZOMG. im up at nineee : ) well thats because i slept at ten yesterdayy. gahh my sleeping habits are reallly dam screweddd. OMG i caught like air crash investigation on national geographic channel. it was dam coolios luhhh : ) like there's this plane which was in mid-air from taking off. and suddenly its nose starts to tilt to 57degree instead of the 7degreee and then it turned vertical and the pilots lost control of the plane and the planee fell to its left wingg and dropped 3km and crashed into a hanger, which exploded. hahahahaha i was like omg is this real. yeah apparently, it is. and they went on investigatingg whyyyy luhhh. and they concluded that its because of the baggage overweight. because the pilot only used the average weight of the people to calculate, not knowing that the average weight was being defined 70years ago. considering the fact that americans are getting fatter every year ( hey not me, thats what they say), they found out that the average weight was

OMG SHOPPING CAN BE SO MUCH FUN! hahaha especially with sam and that bimbo christine! hahaha alright, like before learning lab. me and sam were supposed to meet at 3pm at novena squareee. AND BECAUSE I WAS STILL AT HOME AT 3pm, i had to cab there okay! gah it costs me a big fat twelve bucks. anyway, we went to like esprit and cotton on. espirit is boringggg cause they don't have edc and the one at novena is not that nice. i prefer the one at raffles cityy. and eunice saw a dam nice dress at hereen apparently. HAHA CARDIGAN. anyway sam and i settled for cotton on and we spend hours there/. okay not really. but it was quite fruitful cause i managed to get 2 tops : ) omg, i swear lah sam is freakinggggg smart okay/. i thought she was some gong head. like we were suppose to fill in our MYA results in the learning lab form and stuff and i just passed my english okayyy,. and mrs yeo was like nicoooooooooo. i wanted to declare that half the level failed english and then i looked at sam

YES. finally. i finished making iliana's present : ) GAH IT TOOK ME LIKE AGES OKAY. Seriously im like sweating already. ahahahahs. okay im free to blog about her present cause i highly doubt she'll read my blog now. she must be tooooo busyy fantasizing about her birthday tomorrow! AHHAAHH kidding. I LOVE ILIANA MAN : ) so she well deserveddd that splendid present i made her : ) hahahaha its really really really very nice. i handmade it myself okay. though im not very good in art. AHAHAH AHHH IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF I DONT WANNA GIVE IT TO HER! ahahah i wanna keeeep it for myself! GAHHH OKAY. anyway today we went shopping! YES IT WAS SO FUN. hahaha my legs are aching now okay. hahahahas. cause we were suppose to buy iliana's present. omg iliana better be so grateful man! ahhahaha we spent hours finding it and i had to drag my whole batch along! AHAHAHAH iliana you better love softball batch okay! : ) ANYWAY HALF OF MY POST JUST DISAPPEAR SO HERE I AM AGAIN GAHH. YAY AMERICAN I

so alanna had a wonderfullios dayyy : ) hahahaha. come to think of it, its tomorrow. like AGAIN. i really don't know if im that strong enough to handle all of this at one go. its like twice is bad enough. GAHHHHH i have to stop this emo-ing thing okay! it really is pissing me off. okay, whatever luh. so lessons would officially start tomorrow again. and soon, we'll get caught up in that vicious cycle of poverty ( ahahha sounds like geog ehh) i mean hard mugging and blahblahblah. but its good too, so time would past so fast that i won't even know im in it. i won't even know that im part of this whole cycle. yes, time pass faster pleasee. and then sometimes you wish it'll just stop for that moment, those happy and awesome moments with friends and stuff. how every batch outing seems so memorable, how every recess with JEAN ILIANA AND YONG seems so unimportant yet so significant. and then you come to realise that life's like this. so from now on, i'll savour eve

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALANNA! ( your favourite colour blue : ) ) haha yes, the moment you've been waiting for alanna. well, happy fourteen alright! you know you've been a great listener all this while and i just wanna take the time to express my gratitude towards you. you never fail to make me laugh with all your stupid imitations of *coughcough* and your alannaforce : ) and how i would laugh so stupidly in front of my phone at your stupid sweeeet words and get mocked at not being a great speller! and how you would never fail to encourage me, be it academic or softball. AND MY SUBWAY COOKIE. yes, though i've beeeeen treating you to cookies and so : ) but thanks nevertheless for everything alright! : )) anyway, im goinggg to your partayeeee later on. HAVE FUN : ) i cant wait to crashh your house! ;being strong is not being tough and buff outside but being calm and compose inside. the sky can crash there may be thrash or maybe a bash but its the knowing that you'll still dash. A

& that won't kill me, only makes me stronger. this song is still as beautiful as ever.

sometimes i wish it should just kill me. its so sick to keep on putting up a brave front. i really tried holding back, really tried. i just let it overwhelmed me, just this once. and no more second chance. and that's when i realise life ain't fair. i always did, actually. its just that i thought we all get a second chance. alright, shift focus. life will just keep throwing you stuff. just block it with all your might and no point moaning over that previous rock which hit you so hard. get up, and retaliate for the next big rock coming your way. easier said than done though. we all have to learn, sooner or later. it's all in the metality and always the mind over body. the mind is a powerful thing. it captures the universe. and graps everything that could be, in our very own hands. so just do your best, even if you know it'll all boils down to nothing. for we'll still lie among the stars even if we fail to reach the moon. im not gonna shed tears for my loss, but my wi

alright, i guess im feeling better now. boohooo anyway, i get over sad stuff easily : ) but im always greatly affected about them. ALRGIHT. ENOUGH. ANYWAYYYYYYYYYY TOMORROW'S D-DAYY! if you still don't know what day im referring to, den you can obviously go bang your head against the wall and make sure that its broken into a million pieces. OKAY FINE. tomorrow's our first zonals match! it've beeeen a long time since ccube played an official match together, since src. AND im so loooking forward towards it : ) cause matches are always fun : )) hahah and tomorrow we're playing against crescent, and its an away game gahhhh. ANYWAY CCUBE YOU CAN DO IT OKAYYY! : ) we'll play like we never play before and show them we're no better than those who hit and runs : )hahaha rememberr. its always CCUBE FTW : )) GO CCUBEEEEEEEEE! : )

you know, sometimes i wonder if everything i do was worth it. it've been such a long while already, and i always thought it'll get better someday. but it looks like things are still how it started. all the fake smiles and stupid bond. after hoping and wishing so much. i just need this much. it just makes me contented to be able to feel as though im not alone in this world. i wonder when i could ever feel that way. i doubt whatever it is now. whatever.

training : / gahh. we had like yes, if you can count, THREE TRAININGS CONSECUTIVELY. wow. my sole/ feet/ ball/ toes ( or whatever you call it eunice) is DYING. and my arm hurts ): ahh i hope everything gets better by tuesday. WOOT : ) our first zonals match against crescent. an away game okay ): booohoooo. i don't like crescent's field ): WHY ARE THERE SO MANY AWAY GAMES. like peicai's one tooo. training today was fine : ) the weather was the bomb! it was super breeeeezy and windyyyyy and coooling : ) yeah but that makes me feel even sleepier as i woke up 630am in the morn okay. and kelly woke up at 730am and reached ri earlier than us okay! blahblah then did diamond and stuff. i was super tired that i slept on the bus which went allllllllll they way to the interchange okay. i tell you, i would have slept at the interchange while waiting for bus. then i went home, bathe and slept till 6 or something : ) hahahha and now i can't sleeeeep. nvm, at least i can do my geog pt

hahahahaa :/ don't ask me why im blogging ALMOST everyday right now! anyway, i have to find out a way to upload all the pictures on my phone onto my laptop! the laptop isn't responding to my phone's transfer! HMPH. alright. there goes christine complaing and complaing again : ) ahahhaah! anyway i went to school today. yes i know. i WAS so ponning schoooool okay! and decided to go at the end. anyway, we went for bowling at marina after spring cleaning! you know i have this feeling that the spring cleaning idea was brought up by some girl in her shuo ming wen okay! if i find out who, i'll kill her : ) haahaah kidding. anyway bowling was great : ) we played two games and chiong back school for training. bowling was great : ) okay, but i sucked at it. cause apparently im only able to hit 80+ anddd its dam stupid because usually at the first try, the ball would go down the drain. and then the second one, it'l be a spare : ) ahahhaahha sooo dumbbb hey but i think we'r

ahhaahhaaa so we resumed training today : / gahh i woke up at like 11 : )) eeee i hate afternoon trainings luh, they make you slack the whole morning and stuff. YAY ANYWAY our holiday trainings would be in the morning yay: ) ANYWAY KUDOS TO ALANNA FOR HELPING ME WITH GEOG PT IN THAT WHOLE BURNING OF THE MIDNIGHT OIL : ) hahahahaha! okayyy so training today was okayyy luhhhh. but its fun cause we get to do machine : ) i hate warm ups. they're borrrringgggggg and takes upppp so long timeee. ahahah i love diamond man its super cool : ) anyway, diamonds' are a girl's best friend eh! OKAYYY SO we got our fixtures today : ) first match this tuesday against CRESCENT at their homeground. BOOHOOOO and we don't get to leave school early cause school already ends at 1235. gahhh. nvm! : ) im so sureeee ccubee would own yeah : ) ahahahha like wad mr ben said, we already have the psychological advantage yeahh baby : ) OMG I HATE EUNICE NOW MAN/ ahahahaha lilkeeee cause after training

YAY : ) hahaha yeah, as everyone had already posted on their blogs or whatsoever, its the end of MYA! hahaha i don't know but i kind of feel like normal. not extremely ecstatic or whatever. It just means that its one exam down ( out of the many exams in life) and many more to go : ) hahaha but im still glad. i mean glad that we don't have to sit for those scary exam papers and freak out at the sight of the minute hands ticking away happily. today was maths :/ its okayokayy luh./ i don't know. BUT IM STILL SADD ): no more hugs and i don't know. i kind of like exams (yeah i know, wayy freaky, but) its like you know the night before, your friends call and like you guys would freak out together and do some last minute mugging. Then there would be the next day where you would get together in a circle and pray and hug and just simply wish that time would just stop for that moment : ) then there's during the exam where you wished that your friends right at the other corne

omg, and i just realised i have a horrible sun burn : /

YAY i went for training today : ) haven't train for a long while already :/ it feels good to bat again. ahahahha, anyway training supposedly start at 830 or something, and i arrived at ri at 930. ahhahaha not my fault that the bus took super long to come or something right! and i was like walking towards the pitchers net like right at the north-west cause i thought coach was talking to our batch cause i saw quite a few green-coloured shirt ppl. then i walked and i walked and it turns out to be the ri sec 1 guys. RAWR. hahahs. wateverrr. so we did like batting yay : ) ahhaha thanks boon and emily! you guys run like crazaye and stuff^^ HMMM ohhh and then we started seeing heatwave man. like it was super obvious. the sun was killinggggg us luh! we were all sweats and friedd. THENNN ahahahha the RI sec 1s were playing match against themselves luh. then me and emily were arguing whether we would manage to thrash them or not. hahaha so we decided to likeee play with them. omgawsh, i love

hahahaha. okay, so its two exam days already : ) hahahahs. well im glad it passed so fast. However, sometimes I wish it wouldn't pass so fast you know. its like all these little moments that make life so.. yes miserable. but it's also the time when you get all your friends together and pull through it all : ) its all the little little things. I bet when we all grow up, we'll miss the exams and so so its better to cherish them now : ) hhahas. okay, so its 3 papers more to go : ) for me luh. the other half of the class have to sit for a philo exam after physics too! hahahah poor them. ohwell, but actually they are considered much luckier than us. Because we would be taking our philo exam during EYA which is apparently the most stresful times of the year compared to a puny MYA. hahahs. and you have to pass in order to make it to secondary threeee level! ouch. okay anyway, im like kindof enjoying my life now : ) ahhahas. i mean besides mugging luh, like we end schooool early an