why doesnt kindness begets kindness? why is this world full of lies? why is there hatred? why is life so unfair? why is there so many unanswered questions? why are there betrayers? why are there hypocrites? all of them are just the same.. JUST THE SAME!! all they do is push u down the hill. never once did they not. I"VE HAD IT!!! everyday's meaninless for me. whenever i got to school, the same thing will happen. some of them are just hypocrites, others are backstabbers, some are backstabberss..and they thought they were having fun. do they know how i felt?no. they burst into laughter. today's the first day i didn't play basketball with them. the first time i willingly didn't play. not because of rain. not because of them. it's because i guess there's no point. there's no such thing as friend. best friends forever are just lies...
its just so, so tempting. then again im 19. i dont want to spend my life thinking about "what ifs" and "should haves". they all tell me im in a fortunate position because such a guy only come round once in your life. i know that and thats why im still holding on so tightly, but there are just so many trees out here in the forest, and you've no idea how hard it is for me to say "no" because they're all attractive and suave. i know its all a pretense though, i mean everyone's first impression would always be like that and its what happens once you get to know them better right. i know all of these YET at the back of my mind, a part of me wants to try something new. fresh, novel, excitement, wanderlust, unpredictability, the perils of teenage love, the self-destructing love. YET i know its not healthy, and not practical, and why not just stick to something comfortable and sustainable. and what more can i complain seriously. why nico, why are you s...
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